Untitled poem from 2005

September 05



Untitled...



You found it a game to watch my pain,
Did you pause and think of the scars on my soul?
My heart was bruised, torn and used,
Yet I followed you blindly into a blackening hole.

Love to me was a feeling new and pure,
Emotions unknown consumed my whole heart
You took my love and made it your whore,
Dissected my spirit and ripped it apart

I could see what you were doing to me,
And I hid my eyes, willed myself to be blind.
It was true that I was afraid to be free,
You pulled my soul too fiercely then left me behind.

I loved you for the attention you gave,
I loved so completely, with all of my power.
But I can't stay confined in this lonely cave,
I will break from your clutch, I will no longer cower.

The darkness still rips silently and cruelly within.
It consumes and it corrodes, crawling through this skin.
I've fabricated my life with lies, creating your love.
Something that never existed. A Blackened, broken dove.

Love clawed all truth from my blinded eyes.
Now I can see and now I despise.
Hate seethes inside and will never again be contained.
I give myself to the loathing that courses in these veins

Coming out of the woodwork

Msn messenger nicknames aside, a very funny dream embedded.

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

gotcha...i could tell she really didnt like the cougs shit

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

yeah, i just wanted to give u the heads up

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

but then again, she just cheated on her bf...but i wont mention that

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

what was so wrong with what we did?

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

laffs

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i dont know, chicks arent as cool with that kind of stuff

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

yeah i know

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

the indie wasnt too pleased as well

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

laffs

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

i should stop telling that story to broads

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

thats y i dont tell broads

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

yeah pretty much

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

hehe

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

so taking marts' char is looking viable

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i know

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and i figure we pitch in for the kms

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

yeah yeah...i told him, every cost split 4-ways...thats how the game works

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

exactly

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

he said for the kms it would b 130 bux

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

which isnt bad

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

we still need a meeting for traditions sake

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

yeah i know

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

agreed

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

thats the cost of the rack pretty much

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

then u saved gas from taking only one car

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

it makes sense

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

exactly

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and then the gas is split 4 ways which is so cheap

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and marts car is comfy

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

yup...i forgot when we went with giles how nice it was

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

seriously

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

jas trying to stick his hand out the sunroof!

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

crypes that was incroyable, i will never forget that moment

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

fuck no

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

u hitting the offs hard today?

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

so i have this crazy idea for nhl 94

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i am looking for the official schedule and we r redoing the whole season

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

on genesis obviously

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

were playing very game?

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

every

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

not every, but we simulate the rest

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

we pick one team

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

the rosters is the problem

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

y?

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

its old school rosters

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

i want the new school rosters

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

and how do u simulate?

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

yeah but the problem with that is the new rosters we would have to play nhl 2005 and it pisses me off

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

just dont choose a team

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and let the game run

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

temps wastage there

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

nhl2k6...were doing it like in 2k4 chez moi

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i like that

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

yes i do

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

when is that supposed to drop?

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

prob mid sept

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

gotcha

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

cant wait for hocks...im jacked

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

me too

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i was watching sportsnet last nite

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and i was freaking out

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

whats up for tonight?

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

dano's birthday probably gonna hit clydes

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

good ole clydes

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

should b a deusy, what r u doing tonite?

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

u should come!

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

lets have a party at your joint tonight

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

laffs

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

laffs, 3 fridays in a row?

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

lets go for the record

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

laffs, but my parents r home

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

hehe...details

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

laffs

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

we need some holes for tonight

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

laffs, oh dear jebus

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

no we do not

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

haha...how come no

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

look at me when we dont have a hotel.... now u want me to go completely insane?

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

haha

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

bulin in chicago!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

insanity

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

i know

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

Blackhawks making some noise

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

seriously.... the league is gonna b nuts next year

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

fuck, im even more jackde

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

ed

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i know

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

me too

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i almost imploded when i saw an ad for the nhl last nite

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

haha

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i felt like jas

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

plaing imploding sound in head

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

or marts

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

playing

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

laff

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

s

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

marts and his rumours are killing me

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i know

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

they make no sense

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

i guess legace is the starting goalie in detroit now

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

ouch, that is where they r lacking

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

but they do have pretty good d

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

that they do

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i love chelios

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

so good

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

hes a warrior

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

fuck yeah

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

as much i dislike Det, u gotta respect some of the players

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

yup...but i still hate'em

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

got that right

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

fuck, i need hocks

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

honestly, i wanna play roller hocks so bad

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

me too

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

we have to go b4 we hit wilds

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

fuck yeah

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

ive been having dreams

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i had a fuckin weird dream last nite

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

haha

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

gimme the jist of it

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

hahahahha

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i was helping this dude, the captain of this boat the we were on

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and i was holding the front of the boat

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

on this ladder, but it was like 80 feet up in the airt

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and the boat was rocking like an animal

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

haha

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and he was trying to tie up the boat in the back

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

im done

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

wait, it gets so much better

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

but my foot slipped off the boat cuz i didnt have any roap

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

rope

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and the boat sank and killed the dude

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

hahahaha

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

he drowned under the boat, the funniest thing was that the boat popped out of the water

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and he grasped for air and then the boat took him under

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

haha, popped

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

so for some reason he was like this military guy and had left some items in this locker

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and they were given to me

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

!

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and it was this box of puzzles

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

tabarnak

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

im done here

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

wait there is more

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

but im done

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

so there was about 400 puzzles in this box

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

laffs

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and i figured it out

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and the bottom of the box starts sliding open and i see this metallic looking thing

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

and then my mom wakes me up to move the char cuz they r doing construction on my street

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

so i dont know what this "thing" was

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

estie, thats gold

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i know, but now its pissing me off

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

it should

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

what was this thing

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

those puzzles are classic

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

i know, but i wish u could have seen it

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! says:

it was nuts

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

she must have been classic

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

got that right

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

christ i wanna go home

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

me too

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

the offs is killing me

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

laffs

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

hehe

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

is marts going over to your place now?

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

i dont know, y?

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

no reason...cuz he just left work

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

oh, i dont know he didnt mention anything

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

so u coming tonite?

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

potetn potable

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

good stuff

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

what about jas?

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

hes out tonight

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

how come?

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

hes schmiging it

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

nashley?

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

nashley

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

i dont want to go to clydes

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

lets go dtown

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

i know how u like dtown

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

fuckin dtown, but its dano's bday

Terrorism experts will reveal that dirty bombs are just regular bombs that just enjoy sleeping with high school chicks says:

the peeps from la, we should go dtown

7 days til Wilds. Happy b-day Dano! Clydes tonite? says:

where r they going?

el terriblé

el terriblé

Old transcript:

Paul:

i know and its el terriblé

Stef:

haha

Stef:

we need that business card

Paul:

i know

Paul:

so badly

Stef:

we couldve used him so many times this summer

Paul:

fuck yeah....

Paul:

he would have had a permanent lodging on my shoulder, so much so that i started charging him rent, cuz i figured y not, at least get a little something in return

Stef:

haha

Stef:

lodging

Paul:

but he doesnt pay me by cash, he gives me get out of jail free cards

Paul:

like i'm allowed to do stupid shit and i get forgiven for them

Paul:

laffs

Stef:

and then he fucks us over from time to time

Paul:

well he doesnt spend enough time with me to let everything slide, i mean he still have to do his job

Paul:

or else the big guy will get pissed

Stef:

yeah its true,,,his superior would get mad pissed

Paul:

laffs

Paul:

got that right, i can just picture him standing in front of this ridiculously tall bench looking up at the devil trying to explain his actions, u know while he is holding his tail in his hand acting all shy and shit

Stef:

haha, thats gold

Paul:

but for this depiction i see a little cartoon el terriblé